Point is, we've made it 61 days. Here's to hoping we can make it the rest of the time, babe. We just can't wait to be reunited with our own BigNox #61.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
61...
61 days...the amount of days since Naki's died as of today. 61 days since the girls found out they will have to live the rest of their earthly days without him around to enjoy it with. 61 days now that I've been wearing my new glasses...you know, the ones that if you don't have on, or don't have the cause to wear, you live an unaffected life. A life in which you still have troubles and difficulties, but don't realize how good you really have it because you have nothing else to compare it to. My new glasses discolor all experiences I started having 61 days ago...they aren't what I expected AT ALL, but they also bring eternity as a goal into clear focus. 61 days since I've been kissed by my Baby. 61 days since the girlies have had a hug or a reprimand by their Dad. 61 long days of tedious details about things like: life living wills, getting all our ducks in a row for receiving Social Security, trying to figure out what health and life insurance to have now, going to church as a widow, etc. 61 days that included Halloween, nieces' and nephews' birthdays, BYU football games, dentist appointments where I cried in the chair with my mouth hanging open, Thanksgiving, Malia's birthday, Malia's baptism, Eva's birthday, Ane's 15 month checkup, Tithing Settlement, the church annual Primary Program, Christmas caroling, Family Home Evenings, others' wedding anniversaries, the ward Christmas Party, and more that I'm sure I'm forgetting. 61 days of home rennovations that he would have loved to be around for. 61 days of crying...never knew a body could make that many tears. 61 days of being surrounded by God's earthly angels..everyone should have the good fortune to feel what that is like. I never knew people could be so kind, generous, and selfless.
Point is, we've made it 61 days. Here's to hoping we can make it the rest of the time, babe. We just can't wait to be reunited with our own BigNox #61.
Point is, we've made it 61 days. Here's to hoping we can make it the rest of the time, babe. We just can't wait to be reunited with our own BigNox #61.
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Killing me to now what you're feeling and that I can't do anything about it. Hang in there - we love you...
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I just wanted to let you know how beatiful you, your "girlies" and posts are. I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Naki was such a wonderful man and Christ-like example to all. I can still remember him always saying "Hi" and talking to me at YMYW activities (I am a bit quiet). He truley was everyone's friend.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your thoughts, photos, feelings, ect with all of us.
Here's a big shout out to all the 61's!!!!
ReplyDeleteyou're making it. good job.
ReplyDeleteAbby, I just love you! the picture with Naki's number on it and the days wonderful reflexing. 61 days is just a minute in the eye of the Lord!
ReplyDeleteAbby, you are doing it. You are going through this with so much grace and inspiring so many along the way. We love you so much and will continue to always be here!
ReplyDeleteAbby,
ReplyDeleteYou don't know me and I don't know you. My husband served his mission with one of Naki's BYU teammates. I follow your blog though. (Hope you don't mind) I can't read it at work because sometimes I flat out bawl, but just wanted you to know that while these times are excrutiatingly difficult for you, you are inspiring and "bringing down to earth" those of us who aren't wearing the "glasses". Thank you for staying strong, even though, at times, you may not feel like you are. I hope to meet you one day. Thanks again!!! You have the most beautiful family!!
keep it up!!!!!! Your doing awesome!!!!
ReplyDeleteAbby, you are doing a wonderful job carrying on. You are incredibly strong and faithful!
ReplyDeleteYou and the girls are doing a great job considering it's the hardest thing in the world. I so miss receiving text that end in BigNox#61.I love that guy so much. Great post Ab.
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