Our first family picture without Daddy...

Today marked a very significant day in our healing. Today we took our very first official family picture without our Daddy in it. I know there have been many pics snapped up at the cemetary and other places too, but this was the first time I called up our dear friends and told them we were ready for some updated pics of the girlies and quite possibly, if it felt right in the moment, for a pic of all of us together. Even though it's uncomfortable and painful to not have Naki there with us and it would feel easier for me personally to just go ahead and have them take only pictures of the girlies growing up, I would hate for the girls as adults to wish that I had been in more pics with them, the same way I feel about wishing I had more pics of Naki and I together and even me wishing I had more pics of him with the girlies. The other night as I was falling asleep thinking about getting our pics taken, I knew what I wanted to do. I wanted it to be fun and silly. I also wanted it to show that we, us women, were united in our goal to be strong and to be eternal. I envisioned us walking together in one line, connected by hands held, and all jumping heavenward. Now, it isn't the most flattering image of myself, but I don't care. Here we are, Naki's girlies, and we are smiling, we are together, and we are his.