Oh, the Trepidation...

My dad is convinced that I will do just fine, but I still feel unsettled. When Naki and I started having our precious babies, we struck a deal...and a fine one too. We agreed that I would take responsibility for the kids from 0 - 12, and he would take over after that. Sounded really good to me...shoulda known that it was too good to be true. I am much more comfortable parenting the young'ns rather than the teenagers. And he is just so dang good and smart about what they think and feel, that it was an easy decision on our part. Well, now, obviously, that just isn't going to work anymore. I'm just a tad ticked about that. I put in a lot of years on my end of the deal, and am not thrilled to realize that the rest is in my court as well, only because I am convinced that Naki would do a better job with teenagers than I would.

Well, he's not here and technically we don't have any teenagers yet. But still, I am having a bit of anxiety about making my first major parental decision without him. It involves Line, and it's scaring me. Will I make a choice that will benefit her and not place her in a position to be harmed? I really never liked the pressure that comes with this parenting thing. And Naki being gone is only making it worse. Can't they just grow up, turn out wonderful inside and out, and I can breathe a sigh of relief that I'm done with this rough and nail-biting time? Eeoohh Boy...