Shaving

I have so very much to say and to write. But I am in the last two weeks of my first semester back in school, and am seriously so close to insanity. I have planned to write during my three weeks off between semesters. But until then, I have to write here that last night I taught my two eldest to shave their legs. Craziness! When they start to be embarrassed to have their lower legs show during their dance class, that's when you know it's time to let them shave. They were pros, and were so cute about it. I wish I had recorded it, but I don't usually remember to do that. I seriously need a full time photographer and home video recorder just to help me catch all those moments. Either that or I need two more sets of hands plus an additional brain or two. :) My favorite part was when they couldn't stop rubbing their own legs and saying how smooooooth they felt. I love these moments, where they aren't so little anymore and we can communicate in a different way than when they were little. But I also resent them because it means that the time is approaching when they will all have grown and I will be truly alone. What will I do with myself then? *sigh* Oh well. It makes me so sad, that I just can't think about it. When I start going there and freaking out about it I start to have those irrational thoughts that maybe I'll get some terminal illness and die so that I won't have to live alone...then the guilt starts to set in because as much as I want to be with Naki I do NOT want to leave these girlies parentless. I want to help them and be with them for as long as I possibly can. So, ultimately what I try and do is trust in the Lord that he will continue to show me what I'm supposed to be doing day to day with my life. If I give my life to Him, then the odds are greater that I won't feel as alone as I would if I didn't.

Give Thanks...

Wordless Wednesday

Emily Tafa...thank you so much for bringing this song and this beautiful heartbreak of a video to my attention. I needed it tonight...

Daddy Day 2011

This year on Daddy Day the girlies were singing in their church's Primary program. They did a beautiful job, and Ane was completely confused why she was the only Naki's girl still sitting with me. We spent the entire program in an argument about why she could NOT get up and go sit with a sister. She spent a significant amount of time, moving from sister to sister in our conversation, and explaining to me why she should be sitting on their lap. I did feel bad for her. We'd been practicing the song they sang plus their individual primary parts each Monday night for the last two months or so. And silly us...she was confused then why she didn't have a "part" and so her obliging sisters made one up for her! And she would practice it when they did, and would stand and sing with them in our music room whenever we practiced. It was all quite confusing to her. For me I couldn't have picked a better thing to be doing on Daddy Day in honor of all that he stands for and all that he holds of value. It was perfect. The night before I had grabbed some balloons at the store...two for each child to release. Line and Malia had picked the colors, BYU ones of course. So Sunday late afternoon each girlie got to write a message to Daddy on them. I asked the girls if they would prefer going to the cemetery to release them or if they would like to take a walk somewhere we'd never been before. In Malia's words, "Mom, let's go somewhere we've never been before so we can have a new adventure with Daddy today." So we headed down to Utah Lake, which I know, many of you who live here go there all the time. But we'd never been there. And directionally-challenged me didn't even know how to get there. We found this little inlet area. There was a small hill with a path that we had to scuttle down to reach where we wanted to go. We made it down the hill, but when we got to the bottom to separate the balloons realized that the incredible wind had tangled all the ends of the ribbons together in one big clump. So the girls decided to all hold on to them and let go at the same time. It. Was. Hilarious. At least to me it was. Maybe to those of you who picture a movie-perfect moment it would have been devastating. But as they let go of the balloons, there was a brief second until we all realized that they were headed straight for the trees beside us. Yes, they stuck right in those branches. All the girls were squealing and I could honestly hear Naki's true laugh right alongside mine. The girlies ran straight to the tree and shook it all kinds of ways, until the balloons finally came loose and took the "correct" flight path. But seriously. How many of our flight paths go the way we thought they would or should? The girls and I laughed and laughed and laughed. It was just a perfect day. We walked for a while on a path that paralleled the lake, but after too many encounters with obnoxious bugs decided it was time to head home. Next year I really want to do a hike in the mountains. Who knows what will happen up there!

Cutest Laptop Junkies Around

I came up one night after everyone had gone to bed to tell these two goodnight, and found this cute sight. It made me feel envious and pleased all at the same time. Whenever I see happy couples doing things that I know Naki and I would've been doing, or at least I imagine us doing together, I try hard to curb my jealousy and remember that as I heard in our most recent general conference that my life is only in the second act of a three act play...premortal life, mortality, and eternal life. Someday, I will have reached the third and final act and finally be side by side with my sweetheart too.

Announcing the 2nd Annual Benefit Concert!!

Hey everyone...not sure how many people actually are on my blog anymore these days and would see this posted here. But in an effort to help my sweet brother and sister in law who charitably volunteer their precious and limited time to organize and run such a generous event in honor of our Naki, I am posting this information here so that anyone who sees it can spread the word and hopefully come out to hear some fantastic music. It is such a fun night, and really, a great night of entertainment. If any of you were there last year you know I'm not exaggerating. All the family and those working at the event last year were wearing some t-shirts that were made specifically for that night in honor of Naki. Many of you saw us wearing them then and many times since and have asked where you could get one. You're in luck! They will be selling them to any who are interested this year, so please let me know if you are wanting your very own t-shirt.



If you have the time or the desire, could you pass the information along all of your communication channels? We want as many to come as would like to, and I'm afraid I've maxed out all of my own connections. Spread the word!